Awakening.

          Upon returning home from my 18 month mission for the LDS church to southern California, I decided that I needed to get my life in balance.  I had devoted 18 months to spiritual things, and although I am in the best "spiritual shape" I have probably ever been in, I knew I had to balance out my life by adding physical and social goals to my routine.  I've been running since I have been home, running a lot and it's been great. (I tend to go a little nutso when I don't run so it's nice to have it back in my daily routine.  it also makes me wonder how I got through 18 months with so little running due to various factors).  I've even got a running club going: Wolf Pack.  It consists of about 10 people in the local singles ward, and not only has my body benefited, but my social life has too--two goals in one!
          I decided that I wanted to not only focus on running now that I am home, but Yoga, something I have dabbled in before, but never really allowed myself to get too devoted to.  Today I came across a documentary on Nexflix that was about one Woman's journey toward "Awakening" through Yoga and already found what I was hoping Yoga would bring me if I incorporated it into my life: inspiration and enlightenment...

         For a while now I've thought that "Tigerlily" would be a beautiful name for one of my daughters in the future... I know it's a bit "out there" but it's also beautiful.  Lilies are beautiful on their own.  Fleeting, seasonal, but absolutely beautiful.  When you add in the power of the Tiger, you add the strength that we all need to get through this life.
       One of the benefits of Yoga covered in this documentary I found was the affect it has on your relationship with yourself.  Maybe I have spent too much time planning for and thinking about the future relationships that I will have one day that I do want to be great, that I have forgotten to think about all the ones I already have in my life.  Although I do think it is good and important to plan for the future and think about who you want to be and how you want your life to look, that is very distant and very much in the future.  I've realized as much as I need to look forward, I need to also look a little closer and focus on the here and now and what better way than through yoga since one of the main things it teaches is how to "be present".

Maybe after all this time and searching, I am Tigerlily--or at least can be.  And this is my journey to awaken her with in my self.